God Vs Death .....

Death claimed: I’m the master and conquer above all.

God replied: I created you, you fool and you are slave in my hands.

Death, danced and danced with joy :  no doubt you have created me but still I’m the one that takes the pride of sucking life out of the living making them dead, helpless.

God smiled, a smile full of wisdom : You can make them momentarily dead by the power I have granted to you but its me who would make them alive again, making the dead alive blowing the life inside them and stand them in one complete form as I have created them .

Death proudly commented: I know you will make them alive but still till the end of the world I would be the one scaring people away wishing that I don’t  come to them but I will chase them, chase, chase until I fulfill my job ,painful death ……………… a mad laughter

 

God replied: You are forgetting the fact that when you are sucking away the life out of my people, my creation. It’s when I’m the most closest to them. My sight makes my people, the pious one to not feel the pain but the happiness of meeting me, they rejoice in the fact that they don’t have to live in this mirage anymore.

Death smirked:  What about the pain that I inflict upon your creation, your people .When they cry for help to you but God you don’t help them to live, they cry that the pain should ease, they are helpless as they can see their fate by their own eyes …………End of their life but you don’t help.

God: Life is a test and this world is a temporary place, all has to return to me. Where I will tell them how they performed in their test. If somebody faces any problem in the world and remains patient then I will grant him/her heaven. The pain that you give also become a source of pleasure as my people can see that how much I reward them for their patience.

Death: Huh! How would people believe you God! They have not seen heaven or the hell. They have just seen death …… Petrified, pale people. How would they believe if you exist or not. All they know is that their loved one’s go far away from them to a place from where no one returns. Why would they believe you, you tell people that you love them the most and then they are faced with so many difficulties in their life….and then you have created me...  a rueful smile on death’s face.

God: I have created this beautiful world, I have created humans. I have created the animals, insects and all the wonders of this world and the universe. Now tell me is not this enough for the people to believe me.  Yes! I love them the most in this world more than their own parents. If the parents get angry from their children even a bit they give them detention, look at me do I stop giving them food? Do I take away their power of walking, talking, and eating even for a moment in anger?

Death smiled:   I make physically challenged people dead too. What is their sin? They are born like this with no fault of their own?

God: I told you life is a test and based on the difficulties people face in this life and how they perform. I will grant them hell or heaven.

Death: So,you created world for your own whim, like a video game, where you play with the toys, pat them on their back if they do well, kill them and burn them if you don’t like them. Why do you do this with your own creation, tell me! Why have you created them?

God: I have created people to praise me.

Death smirked again: Oh! I see you are a narcissist as well!

God: Well! I’m God, I’m the creator of everything in this world should not I be?

Death : ………………………………………..   

 I never though that life would have been so difficult in the past couple of days . One never knows when sorrow will strike you .It just catch u unprepared and leaves u delusional and shattered

 I don’t know what to even expect from God as one expects the best and then this happens but at the end its God that gives courage to fight back and stand upright .

My dad has not been well and all in the family including me has been trying our best to cope with it . I hope that tomorrow will  bring the good news Inshallah .

And everthing will turn fine as it used to be may it be just a temporary test of God to ordinary mortals like us .

I had been so tensed not only because of Dad but because of my mom who doesn’t feel well because of him and tries to remain calm but I know what has been running in her mind all the time .

I don’t know because of the generation gap I tries my best to get as much as physical with her but she doesn’t  like me hugging and holding her or may be shies away from it which I am unable to read  .

I don’t how to play my part  and I’m usually left dumb and quiet unable to brighten the situation .May be because of the fact that I’m the youngest in my family and everybody treats me as a baby till now .

I don’t know what I’m writing and what I’m supposed to write I’m just so tensed and I pray to God that everything will turn fine tomorrow morning despite knowing the fact that nothing can be turned good as my dad has been suffering from a fatal disease called Gastric cancer and also in the late stage.

 Things were normal in jan-feb.In the late feb however my dad started having the usual symptoms like heartburn, slight pain .We took it lightly and considering it a usual case of ulcer took him to the  nearby GP who gave him the usual medications like RISEK etc. This situation was on and off like that till in mid march he got severe pain and vomited we took him to the stomach specialist who suggested endoscopy and biopsy .

In the biopsy report it was confirmed that my dad has got a malignant ulcer, a minute tumour .We considered several surgeons who suggested us to go ahead with the operation. 

 However we decided to go ahead with the best surgeon of the town who has the highest success rate in Karachi in the case of gastric cancer DR KM INAM PAL of Agakhan University Hospital .

 He immediately admitted my father and did a 6 hour operation on 21-4-2011. After the operation he came out and said that, “ I’m very disappointed and it was not even in my wildest dream that the cancer spots could be seen so much in the intestine. However I have shaved the intestines and removed the tumour “

  He gave after surgery care to my dad at AKUH for about a week and then discharged him. My dad was coping up with the after surgery pain and could eat light food for a week .For further treatment we went upto several oncologist who when saw the report of the surgery made us rock with the shock that Dr Inam had lied to you about the Cancer stage and your dad is in the 4rth stage as its written in pencil by INAM PAL on the report. We could not take this shock even 3 is not a early stage but still it gives you a ray of hope .

We discussed the situation with several doctors in our family who suggested us to not to go ahead with Chemotherapy as the objectives are not attained in the last stage and especially in this cancer and chemo is very very painful some patients who as soon as gets an injection starts to throw up and feels like they are burning from the inside. The maximum chemo can give you in the last stage is just a month and you never know that whether the side effects of chemo will come in this extended life of your’s or not.

Hence, after a painful decision we decided to not to go ahead with chemo as my dad is already too weak and could not take the painful chemo that is useless for him.

 Our family decided to go Umrah in June but my dad condition begin to deterioite and he was not able to digest even water and was throwing up some bile and his stomach was getting harder when we contacted INAM PAL as he has seen the internal condition to what to do further he rudely told us that “ what I can do now, I have done my job. Don’t come to me for little little pain ,Eat Calpol “

 INAM PAL, may you rot in hell  if anybody cant digest water how can he take CALPOL.

 Then we consulted an old friend of my uncle and the surgeon we had consulted before , DR NADEEM KHURSHEDI of LNH and he sent us to Najib, the oncologist who saw the reports and sent us back to Nadeem Khurshedi again, Nadeem immediately admitted my father and placed an Engi tube and started feeding my dad on drips. 

 Nadeem told us that, “ I sent you people to Najib as he in my opinion could have better handled this case but he begged before me that I cant handle a gastric cancer patient who don’t want  to go ahead with chemo . I,as a doctor know that chemo is not an option for him so I will treat him under me then. He also told us about the negligience of Inam Pal of AKUH that he should have attached a bag with the intestines of my dad so that he would not have faced such a problem of food stucking up in the intestines as it could gone to the bag, Nadeem was saying that in Khi most of the doctors have become commercial and just care for money. I did not become doctor just the sake of money “

We could not disagree with what he was saying at that time as he appeared as an angel in this need of the hour and doing what as a surgeon Dr Inam Pal ,the bastard or as an oncologist Najib should have done providing necessary medications like liquid FALGAN  or installing enji tube that would have relieved the pain of my dad, making him feel better

This callous attitude of Dr Inam Pal  has lost my faith from the doctors and confirmed the fact that 99% of them are all commercial and devoid of any human feeling and have a heart of a stone.  The doctors take an oath to help the humanity and have a moral duty to save human life and like all professions have a ethical duty to be true and honest towards their job but seldom do any abide by it.

I would request PMDC to cancel the license of Dr Inam Pal , Head of General surgery AKUH , as he not only did not provide the after surgery care by owning his mistake,caring just for his success rate but also is a culprit of a heinous crime of worsening my father’s situation and pain by not attaching a bag.

I also want PMDC to issue the warning signs for stomach cancer and other cancers so that they can be treated earlier and they should be continuously advertised in the magazines so as to increase awareness among the masses. As this is the form that is the most aggressive and is detected in the late stage not letting the patient think for a second that what he/she is going through.

People think that cancer kills just the patient but they forget the pain, depression, turmoil that the family and the loved one’s go through .Here I think God makes one realize  that no matter how modern or advanced the world will become human being is just so helpless against God.

Jeaned Jihadi's ...........

The root cause of ongoing militancy in Pakistan is what?? Is it the Drone attacks, the Madressha Education, The Osama Bin Ladin phenomena or the work of the Israeli or the Indian agents? I guess these  are all interconnected but finding a solution to the problem is very important, again who should find a solution and even more important question is that how will Pakistani’s be able to implement it ..

Contrary to the popular belief that all the militants are the religious school students or brain washed by the clerics .I was reading a survey report of Dr Tariq that stated that most of them are highly qualified science students but belong to the religious families.

I would like to cite an example here of one of my female friend who is fond of sending me rubbish sms of promoting Islam, previously I tolerated it and in certain hideous words tried to convey her the message that this holy ritual of sending me religious sms pisses me off but when she smsed  me today that * MUSLIMS CANT BE TERRORIST AND ALL TERRORIST ARE HINDUS ,ISRAELI AND INDIAN *   My doubt about her delusional state of mind confirmed the fact she is  a  perfect  * JEANED JIHADI * who got good education from  a reputable university and  belong to a well – off family but due to the family being religious they attended the DARAS and the availability of the  sub- standard Islamic literature corrupted her thinking .

I tried my best explaining to her that muslims are not angels and most of the terrorist are muslims due to the ongoing war with  the US .The Tehreek –e Taliban is self proclaimingly  fighting for Islam .Ajmal Kasav  was a muslim and they might have been praying regularly in their lives even me & you looked at each other’s answer sheet in exam ,bunked classes ,played pranks despite the fact we knew that its bad and if I would say that only HINDUS , ISRAELI, INDIAN cheat than how would you react to it and to which she cited * NO BODY IS A GOOD MUSLIM EVEN YOU AND ME ARE BAD MUSLIMS *   this  discussion of me convincing her to let go of the hatred and think of the positive things and try not to connect everything with the religion continued and  then she finally told me * I’m going to washroom * and it ended and I was

……..Did that washroom excuse made me win the debate ? 

I do admit that the Israel is no innocent and so does India they are involved with  killing people in Palestine and Kashmir recently I was reading an article of Robert Fisk  over the incident in which Israeli soldiers opened fire on two small girl aged 8 and 6 and shot a guy named Munib just because they were holding a rally over the border and were unarmed .Every now and then you hear news about Indian forces blowing up houses of the so called Kashmiri terrorist and then there is no explanation that why did they blow the whole house if they could  have  had gone ahead with catching the terrorist alive why did they had to kill the small innocent kids and the weak wife and old parents .Its  true that most people raise fingers for every bad thing to Muslims and overlook what is happening in these occupied states .Where is the UN  human rights policy here now . Most people don’t even know that an American and a British reporter were crushed by the tanks of the  Israeli forces when they were protesting against razing the house of the Palestinian people.

This again raises the question that violence should be condemned and peace should prevail above all .We should have courage as a human being to say ,wrong as wrong and love everyone despite our differences

By the way I did not get the logic of connecting * HINDUS, ISREALI and   INDIANS. Does that mean that even Indian muslims are conspiring against Pakistan but muslims are not terrorist according to her logic so that means Indians just include the Hindus so why repeating one idea with different words Hindus and Indians …….may be she wanted to create an impression .

I just don’t know how to deal with these sort of people even they would convince the electric current that is used for therapy that, Hey Current , I’m a muslim how can I a psycho .Psycho people can only be * Indians, Hindus, Israeli *  Its because of this approach that Pakistan is  in a reverse gear because we have  a habit of blaming others  instead of looking for the root cause of the problems .

Then there are people like Zaid hamid  who claims to motivate the youth with his myopic view of the world,a war monger ,  he loves to exploit youth with his extra energy which he get by eating 1000 bananas everyday …….  The best people to deal with him is the BNN on GEO, previously the 4 news team on AJJ  J

The more problems are created by apparently secular Televangelist like Amir liaquat        ( this bastard wears the embellished sherwani’s and pit people against each other first  shia –sunni’s  and now ahmadi’s )   and the news reporter Ansar abbasi .The former went on to describe the killing of Ahmadi’s as good and there was nobody to condemn this attitude . Ansar abbasi went ahead and described the black law of blasphemy a tool of oppression against the poor and the weak as a Islamic law . This attitude by the so called moderate and educated people is one of the biggest menace and nobody stands up to condemn it .

I just saw a video clip of one fanatic mullah who was trying to motivate the sex maniac cum fanatic cum bearded bears that  the HOORS in jaanat would be having a lot of sex appeal and the guys would be having a lot of sex drive and strength to do  it with 20 -25 women . And he was citing that one should not fall in love with the women of the world This indicates that why most of the mullah’s fall for the little kids in their madressah’s  and rape them .

These mullah minded people who’s outlook is liberal is the most dangerous kinds because their beliefs are connected to the fanatic types, they might have everything available to them ,might be leading a luxurious life but still they feel that something is missing in their life like the need to become important whom people could look upto with fear/reverence .This is just the need that makes them do this kind of acts  precise I think that  orthodox muslim  families have a habbit of feeling no compassion towards others and thus treat non-muslims as unhuman .

I don’t know when people will start to see goodness in doing the good deeds like helping others, kindness, compassion, love rather than just religion and the religious acts .When will people learn that God  want people to love  and help each other and for the prayers he has made the Angels . Its how God is going to judge us that how good we are with others and much positive contribution we have made in this world.

Third Sex , Transvestites or Gay

Basic human right is that one should be free to live as one wants to.
According to George Bernard Shaw, * Your freedom ends where my nose begins * that implies that everybody is free to do as they please  as long as they are not harming others and are not doing anything that’s illegal.
Pakistani society is full of prejudice ,its  conservative yet its liberal in quiet a few things however this article is going to be about the fact that why people who belong to a third sex ,those who are known as transvestites or those who chose to become one are looked down upon by the society as being  divested of human qualities.

There was an incident in which a girl had changed her sex in order to marry her best friend perhaps due to the fact that her friend was not getting good proposals. That was her personal choice but the Pakistani media and society made a brouhaha out of it and the court arrested them and punished them. Never been a court has been so efficient in arresting the criminals and punishing them. Nobody followed the story that what happened afterwards.

The Transvestites are not given job opportunities & they are not even hired as domestic labour because of their gender, those belonging to lower middle class are trapped in vicious cycle of dancing over weddings & in the URS.

However, the paradox is evident when in the media, fashion people openly declare themselves as gay and those who are not  one , declare themselves  to gain attention.

These poor souls are publicly made mock of  and there seems to be no option left to them but to stick to what ever acts they are doing like begging from people & bad mouthing due to the callous and rude behaviors of  the common people towards them .

I would like to draw attention to the fact that there is also some responsibility lies with the transvestites guru as they exploit their students and made them to do such shameless acts and take undue advantage of their vulnerability. The laws and the law enforcement agencies are no good here as they also take out their frustration on the poor people. The most horrifying fact is that these people bury their dead ones after mid night due to the backlash of the people. Nobody questions that where in Islam it is there that those people who are born with a biological complication should be treated in such a way.

Its time that we should try to be sensitive towards people who are a little different from us and try to understand them and help them in whatever we can do .As, its not but its God’s will that they are there dangling between the clear demarcation of male and female. So, we should be tolerant and humble towards everyone specially those who are helpless and needs to be understood.

 One of the thing that is horrifying is the fact that there is no awareness in the fact that if a  kid is born with a vital sex organ that is of micro size or the outer layer is deceptive then there is no effort to gather the data & physical evidence of the child & direct it towards the right source not only it happens in the poor segments of the society even the middle class & the rich people find it shameful if anybody would know that they had an operation of there baby to change the sex , mind you its not an operation of sex change it is about correcting the birth defect

Previously if any guy used to go to saloon they would have been labeled as developing girls habbit & would be ridiculed in the friends gathering .However  with the passage of time & the increase in the awareness , thank God guys are particular about maintaining themselves & are regular about their saloon appointments  and why should not they be its their basic right as a human being to have access to the beauty products even in clothing range companies have begin to  offer Pink color for guys  that was once considered the domain of girls .However even now some people consider it  a Gay color .

I have read it somewhere there that every girl has a guy in her & every guy has got a girl in her but if there is any imbalance then they attain the attributes of a third sex however in our society if any guy is seen crying due to physical injury or he is upset then its considered he doesn’t have courage and is behaving as a girl & if any girl is seen changing the bulb or driving on her own then she is very tom boyish and considered devoid of feminine qualities 

And I think this is the problem with our people that they are not happy in any way they ridicule people who are a bit different to them & make fun of them more because they think they are much more talented & worthy  themselves. How can anybody understand the pain & agony of the people who does not belong to either MALE OR FEMALE SEX!

How can they understand the hell they are going on in their daily life because they are not comfortable in their own life with their own physical image & due to the lack of awareness they could not  get themselves treated in the early life & once they become adults & would do an operation than they would be labeled as going out against nature & labeled as a KAFIR

Alas! Life is a continuously excruciating torture for them. I wish if we people can educate ourselves in the real way and  stop believing  the rubbish things of the traditional and  fanatic mullah’s , try to sift matters through a logical eye and learn to love people, accept them the way they are.

One a last note ,

 Once my cousin who has ANGLO SEXIAN look was riding a bike a Transvestite came up to him & pinched  him on his hand and blew him a kiss & said  * HEY BOY WHERE R U GOING * and even  sang a song for  him  * GORAY GORAY MUKHRAY PAY KALA KALA CHASMA *  as he was wearing black sunglasses, from that day onwards he is so afraid of them that even mentioning there presence scares him 

The First time i talked to him i didn't know that we would be having a friendship so strong
I wish with him i will always have a eternal bond
I have not met him in person but i yearn to meet
So that i can prove to him that Iam a true friend indeed
He would show me the hills as he has promised
And we will play hide and seek as i have already planned it :)
When he talks to me i feel so strong
I regard him as my best friend because when he is around
I can always be myself
I wish my best friend gets the best of the best because he is the best and deserves the best :)

Life as i see it :)

A piece of  poetry from myside  that describes life :)

Sometimes life takes a turn that makes you leave everything and run 

You curse the fate that why does it happen with you 

And forget the fact what God has gifted to u 

For you world seems a horrible, horrid place that has torned your soul

Though the spirituality and love in the world has a lead role 

What one needs to remember is that 

* Life is a permanent battle of up's and down  but who is patient and positive persistently wears the crown *

Icc World Cup 2011

ICC WORLDCUP 2011

Icc World Cup has started with all its glory in the Feb 2011 and because Cricket is a major sport that’s played in the Sub –Continent there was much hype in this region about it.

Pakistan, The 1992 champion could not play well against India in the Semi Final and lost .There was a half day holiday announced in Pakistan and Iam  sure the same would have been in India .It was such a big match because of the fact that India & Pakistan are arch rivals but alas the Pakistan cricket team played really bad except Wahab Riaz who took 5 wickets.

It was such a crazy & great atmosphere in Karachi everywhere there were Big screens and people were gathered around it .There were Pakistan flags & face painting were going on .There were again cheap slogans & background music when any Indian player used to get out .The Pakistan Official Cricket team shirts were available at Addidas at Rs 1600 & it used to get sold out immediately many of my friends bribed the guy to get the  last piece of shirt for them and they were praying that OH PLZZ GOD make us wear it again in the final J

Although there were big screens for every other match of Pakistan but it was the Indo Pak match that attracted a lot of attention due to the animosity.

I also was telling my brother to not to go to places because all the matches  we used to see at our place from the start  and when Pakistan was in the winning position then we used to go out like in Australia & West- Indies and all other. He was not in Karachi in the New Zealand match and I was telling him .See, you didn’t see the match from the beginning with us and what happened.

We also used to switch the channel from Geo super to Star sports of Indian commentary because that was the way in which Pakistan used to win because my brother used to comment that *see that’s how Indian’s get jealous with Pakistan *

Whenever our servant used to see the match with undivided attention we used to get scared that God now Pakistan will loose and we used to keep him busy by giving him clothes to iron or carrots to peel while watching the match so that he can watch & listen without boring his eyes into the Pakistan Players

 My dad used to get irritated and pissed off because of our superstitious ways and he doesn’t used to allow it even for fun thought he knew that we are just having fun

 I came across a funny slogan in the place where big screens were there and it is one of the cheapest slogan anybody could come up with ……

                                              NAARA –E- SUI

                                                   

                                              OUI OUI OUI

  and there were another old but cheap ones like Munii Ko Badnam Karo and all of these and can you imagine how would one  feel like being a girl when anybody will shout it at a place where from the outlook cool people are seated  together …… Uff Allah but it was fun lol  but  I again took it positive because it showed how creative Pakistani people are in inventing slogans J

I heard before the match from a high Govt official that Indo- Pak match is fixed and Pakistan is going to loose because of the dignitaries involved and because the bookies had all the money on India and in one day 40 billion dollars were transferred from Pakistan and that every match is fixed and there was an status of the bookie that India will make 260 runs and Pakistan will lose by 25- 30 runs and that proved to be so true and I was feeling sorry for the Shaheed parrot. There was a joke around it that goes on like this

* SHAHEED PARROT KA JANNAT SAY PAKISTANI QOAM KA LIYA PAIGHAM
      APRIL FOOL IN ADVANCE , APRIL FOOL IN ADVANCE *

How brutal can people get in the Indo – Pak match I realized it myself when Kiran Rao was chanting BHAJJI BHAJJI BHAJJI . I just wanted to shout in her ear that *BHAJJI KI BANAGEY BHUJIA *

My little cousins came up all dressed up in the official shirts one was calling himself Shahid Afridi and another as Shoaib Akhter J  although Shoaib didn’t play but he didn’t know J He just wanted to be Shoaib and that is what the star power is. So true that there are only two stars in Pakistan Cricket Team one is Shahid Afridi and the another is Shoaib Akhter

I just don’t understand that why Afridi didn’t make Shoaib play despite the fact that Indian batsman are scared against him and he has  a good track record with India and he was desperate to play .He could play instead of Abdur razzaq who played so badly in the match .

My brother calls him * RUNNING SPINNER * that balls with a pace as slow as a spin and that even with a such a big run up.

I think people would have looked at how Shoaib was twisting and turning in the dressing room and was aching to come up in the field against Sachin.

I think if he would have bowled even 6 over’s the situation would have been different because he would have taken some early wickets for sure

Anyways this match and the defeat against India will be raw  for Pakistan fans for time to come and could only be healed a bit when Pakistan will defeat them again in any match and will be healed completely when they will be defeated badly in the ICC world cup 2015 Inshallah

Today is the final match and is going to start in an hour .My all prayers and support for the SL team not only because India is the rival also because I have got lovely cutie pies SL friends who have a  heart of  a gold and also because of the fact that SL is a great friend of Pakistan 

 

May ALLAH make SL win against India today in the ICC World cup 2011 Final at MUMBAI    INSHALLAH