I never though that life would have been so difficult in the past couple of days . One never knows when sorrow will strike you .It just catch u unprepared and leaves u delusional and shattered

 I don’t know what to even expect from God as one expects the best and then this happens but at the end its God that gives courage to fight back and stand upright .

My dad has not been well and all in the family including me has been trying our best to cope with it . I hope that tomorrow will  bring the good news Inshallah .

And everthing will turn fine as it used to be may it be just a temporary test of God to ordinary mortals like us .

I had been so tensed not only because of Dad but because of my mom who doesn’t feel well because of him and tries to remain calm but I know what has been running in her mind all the time .

I don’t know because of the generation gap I tries my best to get as much as physical with her but she doesn’t  like me hugging and holding her or may be shies away from it which I am unable to read  .

I don’t how to play my part  and I’m usually left dumb and quiet unable to brighten the situation .May be because of the fact that I’m the youngest in my family and everybody treats me as a baby till now .

I don’t know what I’m writing and what I’m supposed to write I’m just so tensed and I pray to God that everything will turn fine tomorrow morning despite knowing the fact that nothing can be turned good as my dad has been suffering from a fatal disease called Gastric cancer and also in the late stage.

 Things were normal in jan-feb.In the late feb however my dad started having the usual symptoms like heartburn, slight pain .We took it lightly and considering it a usual case of ulcer took him to the  nearby GP who gave him the usual medications like RISEK etc. This situation was on and off like that till in mid march he got severe pain and vomited we took him to the stomach specialist who suggested endoscopy and biopsy .

In the biopsy report it was confirmed that my dad has got a malignant ulcer, a minute tumour .We considered several surgeons who suggested us to go ahead with the operation. 

 However we decided to go ahead with the best surgeon of the town who has the highest success rate in Karachi in the case of gastric cancer DR KM INAM PAL of Agakhan University Hospital .

 He immediately admitted my father and did a 6 hour operation on 21-4-2011. After the operation he came out and said that, “ I’m very disappointed and it was not even in my wildest dream that the cancer spots could be seen so much in the intestine. However I have shaved the intestines and removed the tumour “

  He gave after surgery care to my dad at AKUH for about a week and then discharged him. My dad was coping up with the after surgery pain and could eat light food for a week .For further treatment we went upto several oncologist who when saw the report of the surgery made us rock with the shock that Dr Inam had lied to you about the Cancer stage and your dad is in the 4rth stage as its written in pencil by INAM PAL on the report. We could not take this shock even 3 is not a early stage but still it gives you a ray of hope .

We discussed the situation with several doctors in our family who suggested us to not to go ahead with Chemotherapy as the objectives are not attained in the last stage and especially in this cancer and chemo is very very painful some patients who as soon as gets an injection starts to throw up and feels like they are burning from the inside. The maximum chemo can give you in the last stage is just a month and you never know that whether the side effects of chemo will come in this extended life of your’s or not.

Hence, after a painful decision we decided to not to go ahead with chemo as my dad is already too weak and could not take the painful chemo that is useless for him.

 Our family decided to go Umrah in June but my dad condition begin to deterioite and he was not able to digest even water and was throwing up some bile and his stomach was getting harder when we contacted INAM PAL as he has seen the internal condition to what to do further he rudely told us that “ what I can do now, I have done my job. Don’t come to me for little little pain ,Eat Calpol “

 INAM PAL, may you rot in hell  if anybody cant digest water how can he take CALPOL.

 Then we consulted an old friend of my uncle and the surgeon we had consulted before , DR NADEEM KHURSHEDI of LNH and he sent us to Najib, the oncologist who saw the reports and sent us back to Nadeem Khurshedi again, Nadeem immediately admitted my father and placed an Engi tube and started feeding my dad on drips. 

 Nadeem told us that, “ I sent you people to Najib as he in my opinion could have better handled this case but he begged before me that I cant handle a gastric cancer patient who don’t want  to go ahead with chemo . I,as a doctor know that chemo is not an option for him so I will treat him under me then. He also told us about the negligience of Inam Pal of AKUH that he should have attached a bag with the intestines of my dad so that he would not have faced such a problem of food stucking up in the intestines as it could gone to the bag, Nadeem was saying that in Khi most of the doctors have become commercial and just care for money. I did not become doctor just the sake of money “

We could not disagree with what he was saying at that time as he appeared as an angel in this need of the hour and doing what as a surgeon Dr Inam Pal ,the bastard or as an oncologist Najib should have done providing necessary medications like liquid FALGAN  or installing enji tube that would have relieved the pain of my dad, making him feel better

This callous attitude of Dr Inam Pal  has lost my faith from the doctors and confirmed the fact that 99% of them are all commercial and devoid of any human feeling and have a heart of a stone.  The doctors take an oath to help the humanity and have a moral duty to save human life and like all professions have a ethical duty to be true and honest towards their job but seldom do any abide by it.

I would request PMDC to cancel the license of Dr Inam Pal , Head of General surgery AKUH , as he not only did not provide the after surgery care by owning his mistake,caring just for his success rate but also is a culprit of a heinous crime of worsening my father’s situation and pain by not attaching a bag.

I also want PMDC to issue the warning signs for stomach cancer and other cancers so that they can be treated earlier and they should be continuously advertised in the magazines so as to increase awareness among the masses. As this is the form that is the most aggressive and is detected in the late stage not letting the patient think for a second that what he/she is going through.

People think that cancer kills just the patient but they forget the pain, depression, turmoil that the family and the loved one’s go through .Here I think God makes one realize  that no matter how modern or advanced the world will become human being is just so helpless against God.